My Nightmare = toilet...

The Brain is a very complex and unique organ in our body, it is the main component that controls our entire body whether contiously (hand movements) or subcontionsly (heart beat), that gives us thoughts, that gives us feelings, that makes us who we are, depends on the influence of the education and environment. There are also people who believes that our soul lives in this place as the main control medium of our body. It is special, and it provides many unresolved questions to the scientists, to us human race. And one of the unexplainable mistery would be ~ dream.

It is random, it has no specific theme or reasons that a dream occurs, though some claimed that it might have some relation to our life -- could be a vision of the future, or the past, or a vision of a person's previous life (for those who believes in Karma), or even a vision of the dead. But most of the time, it is random and uncertain. Things that you'd never seen before appear in your dream, people whom you'd never met before talk to you in your dream, hence giving us the feeling of deijavu sometimes. and there are three main types of dream: a sweet dream, stupid dream, and nightmares.

When you talk about nightmares, it is always something scary, that you'd never wish to dream of. Some people dreamed of being killed by people, some people dreamed of falling off a building, some dreamed of ghost (watching too much horror movies). But some claimed that the ghost is real and is someone related to them... spooky huh? And some even say that same, repeated nightmare might means something -- your death, your omen, or your past life's death. So if what they said is true... then my past life... must be dead in the toilet.... cuz... my nightmare is always about..... toilet....

I seldome dream, when i sleep, i'm as good as dead, nothing but my ringing clock could wake me up. And when i have a dream, it is always about something nice... or stupid... like running around in the shopping complex with my bolster, seeing teachers in my old school which doesn't seem like my old school but i claimed it to be my old school, or (this is a crazy one) f***ing a seductive succubus while being chased by a Balrog... ~_~ yeah... it's stupid alright. But none of this ever repeated in my dream, yet there's one, a nightmare, always repeated, though sometimes it is different a little bit, but it is always in the same place -- toilet...

it was looong time ago when i first had my nightmare, i was in a toilet.... well... i don't think i should describe the dream cuz... it's scary.... scary in the sense of.... disgusting.... REALLY disgusting... not those bloody type of disgusting but it's disgusting... and erm.... i think i should leave the details... cuz after i had the dream i jumped off from my bed and skipped my breakfirst cuz.... it's too disgusting -- i lost my appetite after the dream so you should know how disgusting it is.... and i had this nightmare when i was in... form 2.... or around there. But fortunately i don't have it contineuously though. The dream stops appearing the next day. Then after a long time, it happens again! Same dream, same place, same nightmare... a little bit different though. And it starts appearing every once in a while, it's not really the exact same dream, it differs a little bit, but i'm always in the toilet. Hence i developed an ability to listen or see gross things and still able to eat... unless what i eat looks too similar to the "thing" lah...

So i have this nightmare again, last night. This time it's a different toilet. It's a special one! i was in a shop, asking if i could use the shop's toilet, the shopkeeper pointed me to the back and so i went. But the moment i open the door it is quite... supprising. There was a stair, a supprisingly long stairs like the one in Batu Caves, except, this one is made of simen without painting, and it is watery. If you'd been to a low cost house and enter their toilet then you'd probably know what i'm talking about. So the bowl is high up at the end of the stairs and after i got up there, there're two dirty bowls... and THERE'S NO FEAKING DOOR! only a curtain that covered half of the place... but it was an imergency that time, so "fark it lah" i said, just use... and it's gross... really... ok... leave the details... don't blame me if you want to imagined the situation! You can always choose not to think you know! XD

So i woke up... and i began to think, why is it the same disgusting thing always appeared? and i begin to thought of the myth, if the myth is true, that the dream might be a vision of my previous life, and since this is a nightmare, it must be how i died, and it's in a toilet...... so.... what was i in my previous life? After thinking for a while, i found my conclusion -- i must be a lizard! There are some other suggestion that i thought of like roach, flies, and spiders. But i don't like insects, so i don't think i'm those, but lizard. I like lizards, cuz when they're around the flies will be eaten. And i like climbing... i'd jumped off from first floor to ground floor before, never died, not even ingured...

So here's my conclusion, my previous life was a pathetic lizard that probably love to sneak around in girl's toilet and eventually got flushed down in a filthy bowl with... you know what...

oh, why girl's toilet you said? cuz i like girls! And i believe this is the same thing that never changed from the past till now! hmm.... doens't sounds right... =_=

erm................ yet again.... that was pathetic.... But if that was true, then i MUST do something in this life that's totally opposite to that! WILSON'S GONNA BE GREAT! CALL ME, WILSON 'ZA GREAT! wohahahahahaha!

man i love this emoticon...

Still i hope the dream means nothing... bah.... don't care lah! IT'S JUST A DREAM!

Investment

i just went back to college yesterday, not that i wanted to, but i have to get back my results! i pass of course, not with a VEEERY good results, but i'm satisfied with it! A 3rd class with honours degree, no complaints and no regrets! Oh well, now i can start looking for jobs, i guess that marks the end of my honey moon either. But what job should i look for? hmm.... i want something with ok earning and short working hour! The short working hour is my main concern, i don't give a damn about O.T, i just wanna go there, work, time up and i'm off! i'm just wondering if i'd ever get this kind of job?

oh well, job hunt aside, one of my friend talked to me about investment the other day, she said (yeah it's a she! wow! -_-) that young people like us should start investing on something for future security. So i asked her, what should i invest on? She doesn't know what to suggest and said she'll let me know more when she learnt more. But i do know a few investments out there that people usually go for: stock market, side business, real estate, insurance, vehicles, etc. Depends on what kind of investment you're looking for, there are many types of insurance out there you can find. For an instance, you have a business of your own, but you plan to build up your market, so either you invest on another shop lot and open a branch stall for your business, or you invest on more vehicles and man power to help running your business and cover more areas. When all these can be considered as normal investments, your friendly buddy here (that's me! ^^) suggests a new investment! Somthing new, something creative and brilliant and worth your time and money!

What's this brilliant idea we're talking about you asked? We're talking about investments on GIRLS! yeah! you heard me! But not just normal girls! I'm talking about.... little girls! Ngiek-he-he! But don't mistaken me as a pedophile for i am a perfectly normal person who love girls with beautiful faces, smooth skin, a pair of lovely boobs, tight waist, sexy leg, and cute ass.... okay..... i think i've given too much information.... the bottom line is, i am a perfectly normal guy in terms of both physically and psycologically! But why am i talking about investing on little girls? what does that means? It means, be friend with little girls, those who're still in primary or secondary school girls. Be friend with them, a good friend, to them, you're someone they can count on, like their big brother, their teacher, yet you're neither to them, you're just -- their Friend! Once you do that, you can start a big plan already!

Start influencing them, telling and teaching them that they should safe money, that shopping is bad, having just one pair of shoes is enough, one bag is enough, that they don't have to keep on buying and buying. Brainwash them! Then further influence them, tell them the importance of healthy diets, exercises, keeping fit and admirable body. Then you can educate them, that they must listen to their husband after they're married, that when her husband say yes, she shall never say no, that she must fulfill her husband desire, but of course to make it less obvious, you must teach her how to defend herself if her husband is a bad one and so on. Like this, you invest on several girls, remember that you don't have to aim on one girl only! invest on several, and always keep in mind that you're just their big brother, influence and educate them till they grow up. This will avoid you from being too obvious and too aggressive to them! But you have to be careful for not being too brother-like as well! cuz if they're just seeing you as their brother, then you just failed in your investment! It is a long investment, and a one shot investment! You won't have that much time to work this kind of master plan! So search carefully, pick your target and invest carefully, and by the time they're 20, you move in for the harvest! MUAHAHAHAHAA! BY THAT TIME YOU'D BE INFLUENCING THEM SO MUCH THAT THEY'LL BE THE IDEAL WIVES THAT EVERY MEN IN THIS WORLD ARE LOOKING FOR!

Still don't get the big picture? You see, let's say you start knowing this girl by the age of 12, after investing for 8 years, they're pretty much being brainwashed by you already! almost half of their life is being "educated" by you! So by the time you take your action to a further level, they'll be pretty much of how you'd want them to be! Someone nice and caring and... don't like shopping and is satisfied by having just a paper bag as their hand-bag and...... okay i'm wondering why my head feel so hurt out of a sudden? ouch ouch ouch! It feels like someone's been knocking on my head! Oh i'm gonna sneeze............................ i have a bad feeling.... i think someone's cursing me right now...... better stop typing! That's all for today, ta!

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alright, i'm hereby to apologize if this post is being too offensive. i was bored and was thinking of some jokes to tell my friends and crazy things pop up sometimes! i really just making this up as a joke and mean no offense to the girls! if you think this is too rude to be posted up here just let me know and i shall delete it in no time! Of course, we love the ladies as who they are and how they act. Though there are times their attitude really doesn't please people, but we should always learn and remember to look at the good side of them, the happy memont we spent with them. Looking at the bright side instead of the dark. According to Buddha's teaching: "how you look at people reflects the image of your true self, and how people look at you", if you only see people as trash then you yourself are not much diffent from a garbage either; if you see people as good, this reflects your positive thinking nature, and life is always easier that way! hmm... going off topic already...

Anyway, i hope that anyone who read this post can read it with open mind and have a good laugh along the way, but if it is too offensive, i sincerely apologize and do let me know if you feel that way!

And no, please don't try this "brilliant idea" in real life, you'd either become a bachelor for your entire life, or you'd get caught by policemen for trying something immoral or inhuman on a 12 year old girl. Or in worst case scenario, you'll get killed by the girl's father! If i'm the father, yes that's what i'll do! SO DON'T TRY THIS AT HOME! or IN REAL LIFE! or IN LIFE! EVER!

A gift for Pn Chan

well, i've planned to write this post for some time ady, but always get carried away by something else, and now look at this, it's already 3 weeks after Pn Chan retirement, now only i post... grrr.... ~_~

I've been quite busy for the past few weeks, taking playing games and hanging out with friends aside, i've been busy in making my preparation for a comic drawing competition, and before that i was busying on making a gift for Pn Chan's retirement. The early plan was to draw a comic, then after being inspired by Nicholas, i changed the plan to making a slide-show-cum-animation movie... but then i realize that i was freaking running out of time and helpers, so it eventually changed into a slide-show only... heh... so it's nothing much... but it took me A LOT of time to make the slide show, it's a 5 minutes show describing a student's memory of Pn Chan. The student in this show doesn't exist though, it's just a fictional character designed by myself, but the story was base on real experiences, which i collected it from friends.

The reason i do this slide show? well... i just finished my final year, a free bird, now ready to venture into my art career, but all these years of struggles in a subject that has no relation with art AT ALL dulls my artwork a little. I can draw, but i can't maintain the standard on every piece of drawings, so what i need now is experience, and this will be a good chance for me to practice, to demonstrate to the students of my old school (i was told that they will show it to the students lah...), and also to show my appreciation for my old school's HM. And it gives me something to do y'know, so till i found a job, i will not waste my time doing nothing but sleep, play game, eat, shit, sleep again... then repeat...

But the sad thing is that i wasn't able to get it done in time though... so i missed out the chance to show the work infront of everyone... oh well... maybe it's for a good reason, so that i wouldn't be too proud of myself and people won't think like, "cheh, show off!" So i ended up just compiling my work into a CD and present to Pn Chan as a gift on her retirement day. And talk about Pn Chan's retirement... it is the most glorious retirement ever! Have you ever heard of anyone having a retirement celebration for one whole week? yeah! Our HM is the first one in the history, from 26 of June 2007, celebrating all the way till her official retirement day, that is 29 of June! And to make things more glamourous, she get the chance to depart by helicopter! It's damn cool man i tell you!

The first day was a party at SMKBU itself, gathering all the HMs from our neighbouring schools, basically it's all the schools in BU area lah. Then the second day, 27 June 2007, wednesday, was a dinner organized in KDU hall. I didn't attend this two event lah, the first one got nothing to do with small flies like me, and the second event, well, i was busy on my slideshow that time so, no, i didn't attend. The the third day, 28 June 2007, thursday, was a gathering for all the former students of SMKBU! It's really cool y'know, a lot of people turns up, and it is like a gathering party for the friends as well! There are some performances that night, Pn Lily Juliani sang Getaran Jiwa, a remix version with mixture of chinese musical instruments, then there are other performances as well! There's one performance prepared in the last minute, the x-SMKBU Choir team performance lead by Melissa Ng and Eek Ping! They didn't do much practices and rehersals, and you can see Melissa is getting panic trying to gather up all the former Choir members, Eek Ping got his music notes cut out wrongly, and the team got an unexpected volunteer from Ai Xuan's younger brother, Hock Leong. It was a funny scene to see! But it ended up very well! Many people join in, the singing is loud and wonderful, the music play is beautiful, and everyone in the hall is singing along with the choir team, it's a real success! Then the last day, Pn Chan's official retirement day, the teachers had arranged a helicopter to pick up Pn Chan at the end of the event! The entire situation was out of control the moment the chopper arrived. Everyone's like never seen a helicopter before (well... of course they've never seen it before... so up close that is!), and the students, including the teachers (:P) rushed towards the field where the chopper touched down, everyone gone wild! Even the teachers also walked closer to the chopper, trying to get a closer view for their camera! The teacher who's organizing the event, that fella is the poorest thing, he was pleading there, "toloooong lah para pelajar, jangan terburu-buru, cikgu-cikgu sekalian tolooong lah jaga situasi..." Then finally, Pn Chan got her glamourous departure by the helicopter after receiving the gifts from all the students and after being interviewed by some reporters.

The event is not suggested by Pn Chan of course, it was prepared by the teachers and the students of SMK Bandar Utama. She's a really good HM i must say, so kind and hardworking, believe it or not, our SMKBU that was once known as the worst school in the region has now turn into the most discipline shcool in BU leh! Things were never the same as before. Nowadays you'll see the students actually line up in the canteen when buying food! And they sit down quitely... well... they talk lah of course, but it is waaaay peaceful than last time! 5 years ago you'll see the students jam up in the row fighting for food, like the monkeys set loose from its cage. Sometimes you'll see some flying objects flying through the canteen, and when that happens, it means you should leave that place, unless you want to join in a fight as well! The flying objects are varied, sometimes it's a plate and spoons and forks, and sometimes it's a rubish bin's cap if it is not the rubbish bin itself! then of course, if you're tossing the plates around, the foods naturally fly around in the mid air either! Recess was a warzone in the past, it is chaotic, and anyone sane would want to avoid going there most of the time, unless they're being forced to go, such as the prefects...

But now everything has changed, not only that the students discipline had improved, but the school's environment itself had improved as well! The colour had changed, the facilities had improved, now SMKBU has a gym room leh! Don't play a fool! And they have an art gallery as well, the science lab is now properly equiped, and the Bio students get to slice frog right now! (gee... i always wanted to slice some frogs... -_-) And the whole school is just.... hmm... how should i put it? The school is filled with information, it has been improved into an ideal study environment! it makes all the first batch students (that's us) wished we're borned one or two years later so that we get the chance to enjoy the facilities provided in the school! But no one can change the fact isn't it? We already left the school right now, and without realizing it, we'd left that place for five years now! everyone is walking their separate path, some working already some still studying. Some in UK, some in Australia, some in Singapore, some in US... some paths will cross again, some... we shall never hear from them anymore... this is life y'know, everything that have a beginning will come to an end. And it is not the end that is important, it's what we do in the process of coming to the end that counts, it is the friendships that we made in the process that makes life wonderful........................................................................................................................... i guess i better stop now... suddenly getting all sentimental... -_-

alright, this is all for today. I'm including the slideshow i made into this post, i wanted to put it on Youtube but erm... it's taking me forever to upload it... so i upload the show in my photobucket account, i also include the site so that you can get a better view of the slide show by visiting the webpage, and ah, that's all for now! Cioz!
The link:
http://s171.photobucket.com/albums/u319/wilstheone/?action=view&current=flashofthememories-1.flv

Cheers 2007

damn man! i couldn't online for almost a week! stupid line down! but putting that aside, i'm glad that i got my line back now!

well, i went to watch cheerleading competition again this year, on 24 June 2007. This year's performances are awesome y'know! Everyone had improved so much! Their cheers are so mature, and the stuns, just simply amazing! and the best thing is, there's a cheer performance by a group called Charm, this team is superb i tell you! Breath catching stuns, amazing acrobatic performance, good dance, good cheers, and never forget, Great Lookin' chics man! XD

but seriously, the team is very well balance in term of the participant of the male and female performers, all with well trained body (if you know what i mean ^^)! And no matter they're boys or girls, they all matched up to their name, Charm! This team is not a competing team by the way, cuz if they are, then we all know who're the winners without looking at the others.... it's sooo obvious, they're Good! But instead, this is a performance team, and they picked up their members from the best of all the schools, and the name Charm erm... i'm not sure what it stands for... Charity... dunno what what what.... hehehe

So this is the good thing, i went to watch the cheers with my brother, and the bad thing is, near the end of the show, some IDIOTs buat kecoh at the back of the stadium! And the worse thing is, the person who buat kecoh, is my brother's friend! well, not a close friend, he just know this person exist and talk to him once, but then his other friend, Jackson, called my brother, making it sounds like a big matter lah, say this idiot kena wallap and ask my brother to check out the situation before he arrived. So my brother did as he asked, went to check out the situation, and me, yeah though people say someone as big size as my brother wouldn't need anyone to back him up, but i'm still worried y'know, he's my brother! so i went with him, and boy there were so many people there man! All doesn't look like a friendly type... then Jackson arrived, tried to solve the matter... then the asshole who started the fuss start calling up more and more people, like he's starting out a fight! But guess what they found out in the end? It's a very stupid story so bare with me...

The guy who started the matter, let's call him A.H (Ass Hole), is aftering a girl let's called her M.M (Mui Mui or in english, little girl), M.M don't like A.H, but A.H doesn't know how to give up, keep aftering her, asking her to break up with her boyfriend and so on. Well... M.M is ok looking i'd say, but too young, waaay too young, she's a secondary school kid from Sri KDU, what d'you expect?! And the worse thing is, A.H... is one year older than me! Well, i may be joking around all the time saying "let's 'invest' on little girls" but i was joking all the time ok, but this guy... he's dead serious! But that's not the most stupid thing, let's get back to the story. M.M don't like A.H, A.H doesn't want to give up, so they ended up quarelling (god -_-), and M.M got so pissed off that she threw her shoes at A.H! A.H got pissed, and start pushing M.M around (yeah, i know, that guy's an idiot), so the girl got scared lah, and M.M's friend, a guy friend, not boyfriend though, start calling for help, asking a malay guy to help out. Let's call this guy S.M (Stupid Monkey). I think S.M making up stories say A.H is bullying M.M or something lah, so the malay guy came in and pushed A.H away. And i think the malay guy pushed him quite hard lah, i mean, what you'd do if someone tell you that a guy is trying to hit a girl? For me i'll pushed him away hard also lah, if not hurting him badly... so A.H got scared... and started crying.... read carefully now, A BLOODY 23 YEAR OLD IDIOT CRYING LIKE A BABY AFTER BEING PUSHED AWAY BY THE OTHERS! and i really mean that he cried like a baby you know! sniffing and crying, and start calling all his kaki to back him up, and the excuse he made, "i was being hit by a bunch of malay guys..." This is a sensitive issue you know! and when he said that, EVERYONE CAME! looking for a fight that is! so he waited, my brother came, and soon Jackson came, and all the A.H's kaki came. Everyone thought this is something serious, everyone thought A.H is really being bullied by some malay guy...

this is when the monkey show begins, the malay guy noticed that this is all a misunderstanding, trying to make peace with A.H, but hey, now A.H got all the back ups ady wei, his uncle, his kaki, everyone, and this A.H suddenly y'know, turn into a fierce tiger! yelling like a gangster boss like that, say, "i don't want to make peace, i don't care! today i'm gonna wallap this guy!"................... waaah... i was saying, damn pathetic wei! He got no guts at all! After living in this world for 23 years he can't even settle his own problem by himself! But it's alright y'know, we all know that idiot exists in this world! But this fella, he cried like a pussy at first, begging for help, and when his helps arrived, he starts barking like a stupid dog! Like he's the alpha male or something! But luckily things didn't turn out bad man, soon everyone knows that this is just a small misunderstanding and decided not to make things worse and just let it go.

The most pitty person would be Jackson, he was planning to enjoy himself for the whole day after finishing his exam, but ended up coming all the way to Bukit Jalil just to solve this matter! And that's not all y'know! Before this i mentioned there were alot of people involved in the commotion right? I noticed some of the guys dress up like hongky gangster like that, standing there, doesn't look friendly at all. So i kept my eyes on them and asked my brother to be careful. And i also noticed the malay guy is not alone as well. I stayed calm and alert, ready to strike at any suspecious movements, then this hongky gangster guy suddenly called out to Jackson, "hey, are you flamming at us?" "no, but aren't you guys M.M's friend?" Jackson asked. "No wei! hey, we're not involved wan wei! We're just spectators! don't get us involve wei!" .................. then this malay guy approached Jackson, "hey, chill lah, ok, sudah takde apa-apa ya! Boleh ambil gambar tak?" and he was smilling at Jackson asking to take pictures.... Jackson, that poor kid who's suppose to be the centre person for this matter, kena bom so much that he lie straight on the floor, laughing at himself as why is he got involve in this matter...

So this is a lesson i learnt from that occasion, never get yourself involve in this kinda stuffs, it's so stupid and so pathetic that you'd never want to be related to any of it... luckily i watched all the cheer performances on that day, and that they didn't really start out a fight. The next time anyone asked my brother to settle this kind of problem, i'm gonna pull him away and leave those idiots to settle it themselves! God! These people, GET A LIFE MAN!