Dream Life

i'm living in a life that's free from stress, from worries, and from engineer...... hahahaa! ^^

i'm now living in a life that i always dreamed of, a life as an artist! too bad i'm not making money with my artwork right now, but you just wait! One day, i'll live in this dream, where i earn my living by doing the things that i like to do the most, and still enjoy my life! But until then, i still have to work hard! And right now, i need to DRAW HARD!

Okay, maybe i'm obsessed in drawing, blah blah blah, but how could you expect me to give this up man? I'VE BEEN DRAWING SINCE THE MOMENT I LEARNT HOW TO HOLD A PENCIL! This is one thing that i'll NEVER GIVE UP! But then all these years of lack of practice makes my artwork looks like crap! I can draw, yes; i got loads of skills and techniques, yes; but somehow all these skills are not working properly... when i'm trying to put all my skills together, it just somehow... cannot merge... and the drawing just... doesn't seems right... how do i put this? mmm.... it's like i can't maintain the same standard on every pictures i draw! Lack of practice man... but i'm not worried! I'm now living in a world where i draw all i like, and nobody, nothing bothers me! I should be able to raise my standard in a very short amount of time! (if i'm lucky enough that is! ^^)

But this month is still a little busy for me, Pn Chan's retiring and i'm preparing a slide show on her retirement day, so i've been drawing whole day for that. And the stupid Comic Competition, which i thought the authorities had canceled it this year, is still on! but i must submit my work before 30 June.... baaaah... don't care lah. I'll see if i'm able to draw one before the due date... if not... oh well... too bad for me then...

right now i'm not planning to work yet. I'd finally got my freedom, why should i get back to hell so soon? Besides, i need to properly plan out my future, and bring my dream to reality man! ............ just that... after i planned out everything, i forgot to put in a slot of when i should get a girlfriend.... -_- right till now... it's still zero leads... tak ada pompuan, tak tau where to find pompuan.... somebody... introduce me some girls please... *sniff...

The Last Stand - Part 4

hahahaha! Now i'm really done! no more exams, no more tests, no more viva... AH-HA-HA-HA! This is what i call freedom man! Now there's another 2 more months to convo, and the results dunno when will come out, but i don't think it'll be soon! Some people start looking for jobs right after this, but me, i prefer giving myself some time to relax man. I mean, after 4 damned years i'm finally through with this man! Why rush to work and head back to hell so fast? i just spreaded my wings, let me fly a little longer!

The vivas, they were ok. Mr Chio one's a little **** up though... Kok Hoe did some mistakes in writing the report, my portions look too simple and the worst thing is, Eric didn't do anything... and get caught by Mr Chio! Man.... that day was a nightmare man.... it was the first time i see Mr Chio look so scary... he was still smiling y'know, but something in my heart just keep telling me that it's bad, it's bad... i'm dead! I don't think i'll be afffected much by this, since i did my job and answered what he asked me, but i can't tell for Eric. I wonder how is he now... never see him ever since that day... The last test on Friday was really bad lah... hahaha! ^^ i got myself ill the day before the exam, i think it's food poisoning lah... so ended up really sick and didn't study anything AT ALL! So it's only natural that i can't understand anything in the paper... i did tried my best to squize out whatever that i have in my brain, and left the hall one hour before it ends... (the test was two hours duration lah)... hehehe... but luckily this one only contributes 1% of my finals... so it doesn't really matters lah.... hopefully... -_-

the Project Viva was ok either, the demo's a little yucky since we weren't able to combine our circuit, so it's only natural that we got shot by the accessor. But overall i'd say i did well in the demo. I show them clearly what i did, they understand what i said, i runned my simulation infront of them and it works, i answered every questions swiftly, so yeah, i think i nailed it! They asked me to correct some minor portions of my thesis though, but you know what is their comment? You wrote a good thesis. Hehe! what else you want?

So! i'm through, i'm done! I'm really a free man right now! Celebrated with sushi again! hahaha! too long never eat ady, got choked up by the wasabi! Damn Syok wei!
Now let's turn my study table into an art table! just like the one i always want it to be...................

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The Last Stand - Part 3

Finally, it's over... the exam... i no longer have to sit for major examinations such as this one. 4th June 2007, time 1900 marks the moment i end my miserable life as an exam taker! I no longer need to worry about marks, about passing or failing. Today's paper is suppose to be the easiest amongst all, but the stupid examiner changed the format (damn the formats!) and came out with a stupid diagram asking me to analyse it. I know how to do it, just that due to the sudden shock and confusion of facing something new, i got stunned for a while, and damn! Not enough time in the end! Damn shitty wei! i was expecting to score a pretty high mark for this paper, now it's cut down to half! But does it matter? No... it doesn't matter anymore, it's all over! i no longer need to stay up late to study, i no longer need to do tons of pass year's papers, i no longer need to worry about that anymore... no longer... aaaah... freedom! Feels so good!

i don't think i'm in such a bad situation that i'll fail my course, it's impossible! But i probably won't be able to achieve my target, probably will be getting a 3rd class only... but that's no big deal man! people got diploma cert still be able to find a good job! So maybe i'll get this kind of luck too! And i shall leave that to my future, let's not bother about that for the moment. Now, is the moment of rejoyce! A moment of relieve, and release from 4 damn years of mental torture! Some people say though, that working environment is much tougher, blah blah blah... bah my fart lah! Nothing is tougher that being forced to do something that you REALLY don't like WITHOUT getting any pay back! At least working, "hey i got pay! and my stomach is full!" ....
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now what's left is some Viva Voce and a phase test. Viva Voce is an interview with the lecturers, discussing about your past works, whether you understand what you're doing or you're just copying... additional marks are scored from there y'know! that's what i heard of course. I'm not really sure how to pronounce the two words though, i pronounce it as "vai-va vose", some people called it "vee-va vose", my lecturer pronounce it as " vai-va vo-say"... which i don't think it's correct... but who cares?... as long as i'm referring to the same thing and everyone understand what i say then it's fine!

So, today i'm having my viva, 3 interviews in a row! Syok leh! Kok Hoe made this arrangement himself, and i say it's good also lah... no point to pro-long the troubles, just get it through in one shot, then tomorrow (wednesday) i'll be having my project viva, then friday my phase test, then it's all over! hahaha! Mom asked me to continue my studies to master degree... but i see no point doing that... i'll most probably ended up jumping off from KL Tower! hehehe! So no, no master degree in engineering, please! I'M THROUGH WITH IT! AND BY THIS FRIDAY I'LL BE FREE FROM ALL THESE... HELLISH TORTURE! HAHAHAHAA! YAY! IT'S ALL OVER!

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... the sky seems so beautiful today! i'd never realize that the world is so pretty! -_-

... to be continued